Family

As much as you argue alot with your family.. your family is always the first. You'll know when you are in my situation. I miss my mother alot. I never talk about them alot in here. But they, my parents, are the best in the whole wide world. Dulu I was a headache to them because I always go against apa yg drg taught me.

and now, at the age of 21, I realised most things why they told us to do this and that. Cause when u get married someday.. they are not gonna stay with you anymore and they don't have that long time anymore to serve you as a child. They never have enough of you as their child. They were with you since you were a baby.. for me.. its 21 years. They read you very well even though its not obvious and you say.. "mama inda faham" bla bla bla. but in fact they do.. they do honestly.

I shouldn't be here at this age. This is not my standing ovation. This is not what I imagined and dreamt dulu.. this is not it. You know what i dreamt dulu? Getting the best job and drive the best car and give my mother a 1.5k every month. Get a maid for them and live in a beautiful house and get married and have a twin babies.

and now.. its too far from that. How would you think I will get the best job with only unsuccessful A'Level and a future ND holder in Business and Finance.. stupid much? giling2 saja ku. Regretting is useless now.

P/s when I say I want a shoulder to cry on.. I just need people to hear me not being manipulative.