PRETTY DOWN

I'm still furious.  I know its stupid that i'm burdening my head of someone else.. that person disgusted me soooo much.. seriously. I was told about her saying things about me but it seems like.. sigh. I have all kinds of dissatisfaction inside me. I'm truly sick of you and you and you... I need to stop. but then.. this person (should I put 's' ?) cakap tidak serupa bikin. If you are normal and not having mental illness.. i'm sure you can see that i'm not fucking wrong bitch! ergh. 

Regarding this thing sneaking in and out my head is annoying enough. First, this year is my last year at Business School then I actually gonna have my ND. but things never satisfy me as I really wanna get my degree. but I WANNA WORK. life is not easy without money.. I kinda need that already. I've planned few things.. and I really wanna get the degree that I want.. I don't want to be the person who takes things for granted and just take whatever course that can accept him/her. That will make more dissatisfaction. I had enough regretting.

Things I don't like in the education of Brunei is.. they decide for you from your younger age until now. I mean.. when we are in form 6.. we can actually choose what subject we want to invest to. but few tutors won't be agreeing to your choice because they see you as incapable when you are from Art Stream. yea.. I know you all are being cautious but that decision is tearing few people. 

and hence, I learn my lesson. I love what i'm doing now though its not easy. There's nothing easy made for us. and I'm gonna get this subject for my A'level. InsyaAllah. All I need is the guts. May Allah let me have this feelings forever.. never enough of what I can do and able to do. Amin. May Allah give me all the success of life. Amin. 

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I was watching Channel V this morning and I find this cute. haha. Koreans.. they have this glimmering and stunning skins. hmm. ohh.. last night I went to Intan Spa somewhere near Micronet. The place is awesome.. feels like Bali environment. The masseuse is I can say knowledgeable in massage and she gave few other tips. eheh. and Eyan commented on the guy masseur.. he's pretty good compared to the guy he always visit at Serusop. So kamu2 laki2.. try him. eheh. 

BEAUTY FREAK

Wuuhuu.. finally I got my eyelash extension. lol. sekadar ah? I couldn't wear my spectacles properly and comfortably. HEE. and I showed them to my mom today.. and she laughed. and commented I looked like Minnie Mouse :D that badd huh.. 

oh so I was cursed.. I know. my badd for telling those conversation but then.. you think you are perfect and you sure you are telling the truth. I haven't bitch about YOU for so longgg like after the quarrel and YETTTTT.. you are messing around with your bloody tongue and other people's feelings. HAHAHA. lady lady.. the day you talk about your love life is the day that I know everything. how caring was I to hear your rungutan? anddd guess what.. that was the best feelings I had when I played around with yours too. 

fyi, I don't mind losing a friend like YOU.. cause u never get tired playing with fire. damn you. lol. I learned from my mistakes but DID YOU? There are always reasons for whatever you get nowadays A.K.A karma. and you wished something bad for me? as long as I act better than you.. insyaAllah.. I will have the life I want. 

p/s May the best comes to you. 

LEFT OUT STORY

made me thinking. conversation of Eyan and his friend.. other countries like Malaysia puasa a day before us right? but we havent puasa until the next day kan? then ok.. this one is abit funny lah.. a friend of Eyan said.. bilatah syaitan kana jail tu? erkk. tapi mcm jadi pikiran right? HAHA. but its all up to Allah. I dont want to think much further about that.

and oh oh.. Eyan's cousin was selling ayam salai dlu d stadium.. he's working with another friend of his and he is new in this. this new guy asked Eyan's cousin..if urg bali ckp thank you.. tani reply apa.. Eyan's cousin said.. ur welcome or come again. then, ada one customer bali dn said thank you.. and what he did was.. he said.. "say again" and the customer ckp lah thank you lagi and like.. 4 repetition of that and Eyan's cousin tedangar their convo.. haha.. and tanyanya.. apa ko ckp tadi kan? say again katanya. and they all laugh hysterically.