Paranormal Activity

F*** Paranormal Activity! and thank God its not a REAL STORY. well.. those thing does exist but people spreading the rumours that the movie is a true story itself is idk.. a prank? ceh. Tried google-ing it just now.

Taken from Wikipedia:-

Paranormal Activity is a 2007 horror film written and directed by Oren Peli. The movie centers on a young couple, Katie and Micah, who are haunted by a supernatural presence in their home. The movie is presented in a documentary style, using footage from the camera set up by the couple to capture what is haunting them.

Armed with a budget of $15,000. The film was shot at the director's old house in Rancho Peñasquitos, an upscale suburb of San Diego. Peli went as far as changing the floor boards and interior design elements to fit the film's setting.

"Good Luck Sleep" hehehe.

So yea. The movie terrified me badly during dawn especially when I have to wake up to attend my baby.. twice usually at 1am and 4am. heh. Every single "scaretime" moment in the movie is playing in my mind bangun ku ah. membari gila. but now I should be fine. lol. You people should try watching it. hehe. Introduction is abit boring but as it goes further.. it'll be crazier and feels like homicide. exaggerate. haha.

So i'm a mommy now. btw, baby's name is Qisya Insyirah. I gathered all the beautiful names and Husband's work is to combine the names. hehe. She is 18 days of age now - consume milk for 3oz already.. that soon eyy. lampuh tah ne karang. hehe.

I'm glad that I have her.. ALTHOUGHHHHH.... i have to wake up twice during subuh. still she's cute when ia bejaga masa subuh.. badly i wanna go back to sleep asap when she's bejaga and diam2 saja.. I can't cuz I can't stop staring at her. so cute. lol. She has the hair of the father.. and his eyebrow.. and his eyelashes. but she has my feet.. hahaha. my ears as well i guess.

Boring Updates

hahahahahaha. sorry for the lack of updates. I'm expecting cobwebs if this blog is physical. lol. I know I know.. I haven't post my wedding pictures.. I think its too late for me to post that.

Life as of now? I'm bulging from today to tomorrow. you get what I mean. Husband is gaining more weight than I do.. lol. and I need to mention it here.. I gain 3.1kg in a month. 0_0 and addition to this topic.. eyan gained 4. hahahaha.
My attachment? I'm starting to feel that I'm doing most of the job in my department since there is only me and my Boss in the department. Imagine that? and I hate stairs.. f*** stairs.. rumah tangga.. kraja tangga. cramp kakiku.

As of today.. 3/8/09.. I went home from work at 10pm.. I hate it. not what I expect.. especially me in my heavy situation and me as an attachment student. damn. eheh. Its all because of a visit by this one particular organisation that'' be tomorrow.. everything is last minute. ergh. I told you.. i'm like know most of my department's stuff. eheh.

I think my husband is doing his office work now as well. I guess he has alot to catch up with since he was on leave for two days last week.

Here goes pictures

Hiiiiiii.. *grin*

I'm going to upload few pictures of me during my so-called "Autumn" in Brunei. lol. Location is a secret. hahaha. So yea.. these were taken 1/2 days before my solemnization. hehe. and guess what.. its kind of embarassing that the husband told me to be the model. esh. People were watching us playing with the camera and flash..

I have more batch of these in my flickr.. too lazy to upload all.

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Due to the addiction of wearing the fake eyelashes.. here's what I bought during my trip last time. hehehe. Wedding's fault as I wore fake eyelashes on most of my events like Nikah Ceremony, Berbedak as well as Sanding.

I know its blurry.. but i like the colours. hehehe.

Guess what.. I'm gonna start my attachment soon.. like this Monday. hmm. I hope.. and I think its going to be fine. There's only 2 of us who got accepted by this company.. me and Abby (my next-door friend and my cousin's friend as well). It'll be fun and I know its going to be tiring as the working hour is from 745 to 530 except for Friday.. until 430. Good Luck Zaty.

*thinking* how's all my friends coping up with world? nyeh. and heyy.. I haven't pick up our (Zaty and Eyan) official wedding photography.. too many things to do at one time is boring. and guys.. my early stage of married life is superb.. I love the husband so much and he's doing well.. obviously in front of his new desktop (don't deny it.. its still new!). and i'll tell ya when it gets boring.. lol. won't be insyaAllah.. i just want to cherish the start of the new life. hee. Have faith.

oh btw, Eyan did his hair art just this week.. he was only with it for 3/4 days and now he's cutting his hair again cause he is worried that the workplace is catching a heart attack just looking at his hair. nyeh nyeh nyeh. unfortunately its still visible.. and he doesn't want to go for skinned head. lol. so just put it that way. hehe.

keep on waiting.. i'll be uploading the pictures tonight.. i'll put some more photos soon! no worries. banyak ne gambar kami.. hahahaha.

Wedding update

Here's an update.. 

For the past few weeks i've been hibernating from the outside world.. technically. because.. I'M WAITING FOR THIS DAY. hehehe. Yeay.. finally officially we're husband and wife. HEE. Ask me? How do I feel? I'm ecstatically excited, happy and honored and kambang as well. Though my day starts with gloomy faces due to some reasons I can't go against.. Its my day.. our day. 5/6/09.

I got so serious when the Nikah ceremony starts.. shaky jua ku *grin* So many things to do.. I mean with the signing.. giving permission to my dad as wali.. listening to khutbah nikah (all this time.. I thought it would be longer) then hearing to Eyan's whatever. He was stiff-sounded... lol. and what's funny.. after 4weeks of khursus nikah.. my nene as the Imam asked him "ingat masih apa rukun nikah?" hahahaha. and idk.. maybe those trigger his nervousness.. he couldn't answer. lol. and people laughed.. seriously. You won't expect that question from Imam aka nene lakiku. 

moving on.. we took lotsa pictures.. I think. Hmm.. Eyan is goooooddd in front of cameras.. lol. I hope the pictures will go well. 

gotta bounce.. I need to lulur my face and hit the sack soon. tomorrow will be my berbedak function/berinai too. Hope things will get better tomorrow. Amin ya rabbal alamin.

Randomized post

Few things happen for a reason. I quoted Nurul's words.. "if ko sudah kana bagi cemani, ani amanah Allah arah mu". I guess I believe that. 

I was scrolling through this one lady's pictures.. not gonna mention here. She looks glowy and I have to say "clean".. something just shows the pureness from her face. I guess a person is letting her go does have an effect on her.. I pray for your wellness from head to toe. Amin. I saw her at the mall last time but it feels weird to approach her.. even to smile at her. Lets just put it that way.. I'm not hating you.. its just.. I don't feel good to be put the blame on me when my intention is good for this two people eventhough its not working very well in the end. Somehow it did before the ends really totally over. hmm. what i'm saying here is.. amanah nya might be arah someone else.. not this one person anymore. maybe there is need to change this new person? or.. idk. 

Anyway, I attended Khursus Nikah for 3times already.. next week will be my final khursus. Having a lecturer in front of us and me listening very carefully.. here's one thing. As you people know.. "kata2 itu satu doa". Kata2 actually involves everything.. our mindset, what the heart is saying and all. As hard as I don't want to believe that.. actually it is true. what's in your thought but was not said aloud.. it is a doa. I came across few events in my life that I imagined dulu came true. scary huh? That is why you are not allowed to be a pessimistic. 

p/s O_O its 2 weeks. the wedding is in 2 weeks. and damn.. my room is not fully furnished yet. lol. and the parents kept on calling me every single day asking me this and that.. how can I relax my mind? ergh. 

Anywhoo, Happy Belated 3rd year Anniversary Shopian. It was more than 3 years from the day we met actually.. hahaha. 

Solemnization and Wedding

ok.. I'm officially announcing that the solemnization will be on the 5th June 2009. The big wedding day will be on the 7th June 2009. Obviously.. I have to invite friends and cousins. and obviously.. I will be inviting all the classmates in case some people is wondering. shock? I'm in shock more.. I have to say its worrying me abit. heh. in all aspects I mean..

Sorry to few people if i haven't been myself lately.. my days are just so miserable that no one knows what i'm going through.. i just couldn't figure myself out and what's it gonna be in the future. I mean.. there's no one that really knows me well.. not even the fiancee. I am tired with all the preparations.. i've to go to the wedding shop myself like more than 5 times. than doing tawaf checking barang hantaran.. ITS TIRING and I don't like it. Gifts for the guests haven't been decided yet and guess what.. its less than 1 month? oh my god. 

and all this stuffs.. mix it up with my studies and assignments and exams.. its just making me crazy and I can't even handle the pressure myself.. honestly, I cried due to pressure around me. I can't stand any single thing. So don't blame me if I started to curse and swearing.. I know few people dislike that.. but I barely can't stand the pressure from people as well as the dates coming up. Anyway, I'm thankful that the final Business Accounting is done. I've to concentrate on Economics saja lagi. Good Luck to me. heh. 

The Big Day

I'm officially engaged to Mohamad Shopian on the 24th April 2009. It has been 3 days i'm a fiancee to someone. Ask me whether i'm happy or not.. i'm not so sure either. heh. But its funny when Eyan and I started calling each other.. "hi fiancee" or "eh tunang me.." hahaha. He got so sasak when I said to him.. "me single" lol. The fact is i'm not. 

I have to admit that I was so damn nervous when his family came over to my place. It was a full house.. every inch of the house is cramp with asses and feets. hehe. The families joined me and my mom to prepare all the foods so the berry last minute. Alhamdulillah we got extra food.. as in everyone ampit lah ah. 

To the fiancee.. you've done so many wrongs in the past.. I just hope that you will see the future properly and think wisely. I got tired spraying my saliva at you just hoping and wishing that you will change and think of what you had done. I am not assured whether you know me very well.. but you should know a lady's heart.. I mean a good lady with an honest heart.. not the birah and melayan type. 

I will always love you. 

Love, Zati Zakirah

GIVE ME EXTRA TIME

Hi. I've been neglecting this blog for some times. Sorry for that. I've been busy and will be much more busier this coming 2 months. I have exams coming up.. 3 papers and 1 assignment and few more events that I have to attend to is just pressuring me. My previous holiday is useless.. I've no idea what I did with my holiday. Doesn't even ring a bell of anything. See how bad was my days?

This past week I was trying hard to finish my LNC Report and I had my LNC Presentation just this morning. I think I did well though I was obviously lazy and not having any sign of happiness mode. However, stuffs that surely a good news is there will be no more official lesson for LNC. By that I can concentrate on my other 3 subjects. Lately, I drove alot and I don't even own a license yet.. and that lure me to my backache and tired. Oh crap.. this post will be a confession of burden. haha.

I have too many to write down here. Shutting it off will be good rather than continuing. Eyan and me is doing good so far if that what you guys wanna know. heh. He is rather busy with his work though.. handling the sports section of his life. nyohh. He is not active in rollerblading lately.. but YES to badminton. and he managed to get that bulging tummy for 3 years working. HAHAHA. His hair is messy.. looking abit like Elvis Presley. and I think we're gonna head to Gadong again for dinner.. I totally forgot to cook and its late to start to prepare dinner. sorry baby kuuhh.

I'll update regularly insyaAllah. well.. its not that important.. I mean people don't really wait for my new update. lol. Salam.

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I'm at home doing nothing other than trying over and over refreshing Pet Society in Facebook. eheh. oh btw, I made my final choice already for the attachment.. 1st: Armada. 2nd: BAG Networks. 3rd: BICB Capital. So, its either one of this or none. See how it goes. Another exam will be in March maybe insyaAllah.

LNC Test was pretty easy. I managed to answer them in 45 minutes I think. hehe. So yea.. most of us went out early. School is no longer fun nowadays. Too many things to be complained. I should keep that to myself and maybe Eyan knows. Few days ago was stressful enough just staring at "things". nyohh. Characteristic is a total fucker and fucking ignorance. If I'm considering to continue.. I won't be stop bitching. trust me. Life sucks big time when I see the "thing".. seriously. Additional to this.. talam dua muka saying things about each other but in the end.. you miss that person.. aren't you? my goodness. unbearable. 

oh.. we're moving out soon. There will be 3 rooms.. and we will take 2 rooms for our things and 1 will be for guest room.. I really hope that it will be neat and tidy all the time. I just wanna get married ASAP due to so many reasons. I just hate that people is taking advantage thinking of me and Eyan haven't had a serious relationship aka not even a fiancee. These people couldn't care less for what me and Eyan feels. like.. all of you human doesn't understand us. fuck. eh stress ku cemani ani. I really need to talk to my mother. I'm not married yet and why is it that hard for me to enjoy this life? I mean this "bujang" moment to do whatever we should do and should act. burdening. 

I'm bloody enraged. ergh. I need to sleep I think. Thank god its Friday tomorrow and I can rest but then.. heh. Eyan feels me. heh. 

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I had fun talking with Syarfa at school. You made my day. hehe. Eyan can't stop nagging me today.. sorry baby but seriously.. you are like my father already. I just want someone to listen and give me advice not NAG. anyway, its all good now. (Eyan is busy with his brother's new camera.. pity lots). Thanks for everything btw people.. to you too baby. hugs.  

oh btw, thing that could make my day is looking at Ejamm's baby boy. OMG.. he is so cute. I hold him last night and I was like.. ergh.. ku gigit ko karang. hahaha. insyaAllah nama babynya.. something like "Wafri Ethan Idraaqi" that's just nice and beautiful! Congratulations to Ejaam and Ayong for your first baby boy. Alhamdulillah things went well in the labor room accept for slowing heartbeat and something's gotta do with the umbilical cord. eheh. Next post tah i'll post semua pictures.. alrights.

p/s Sorry Ejaam nda ku tahan nda kan simpan gambar nya cni ani. kiut bahhh. i've been waiting for kawan2ku ada anak. hahaha. siuk ehhhh. hahaha. 

*smile*

Posting this up on the Anniversary of Eyan & Zaty. Happy Anniversary baby. 

1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had

Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad

Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad

Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you

I love bein' around you

You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do

Three words for you I love you

There's only one way to say

Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

Give me more lovin' from the very start

Piece me back together when I fall apart

Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad

Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you

I love bein' around you

You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do

Three words for you I love you

There's only one way to say

Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

I love you

You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There's only one thing to do

Three words for you I love you

There's only one way to say

Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you

I love you

1, 2, 3, 4

I love you

I love you

PRETTY DOWN

I'm still furious.  I know its stupid that i'm burdening my head of someone else.. that person disgusted me soooo much.. seriously. I was told about her saying things about me but it seems like.. sigh. I have all kinds of dissatisfaction inside me. I'm truly sick of you and you and you... I need to stop. but then.. this person (should I put 's' ?) cakap tidak serupa bikin. If you are normal and not having mental illness.. i'm sure you can see that i'm not fucking wrong bitch! ergh. 

Regarding this thing sneaking in and out my head is annoying enough. First, this year is my last year at Business School then I actually gonna have my ND. but things never satisfy me as I really wanna get my degree. but I WANNA WORK. life is not easy without money.. I kinda need that already. I've planned few things.. and I really wanna get the degree that I want.. I don't want to be the person who takes things for granted and just take whatever course that can accept him/her. That will make more dissatisfaction. I had enough regretting.

Things I don't like in the education of Brunei is.. they decide for you from your younger age until now. I mean.. when we are in form 6.. we can actually choose what subject we want to invest to. but few tutors won't be agreeing to your choice because they see you as incapable when you are from Art Stream. yea.. I know you all are being cautious but that decision is tearing few people. 

and hence, I learn my lesson. I love what i'm doing now though its not easy. There's nothing easy made for us. and I'm gonna get this subject for my A'level. InsyaAllah. All I need is the guts. May Allah let me have this feelings forever.. never enough of what I can do and able to do. Amin. May Allah give me all the success of life. Amin. 

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I was watching Channel V this morning and I find this cute. haha. Koreans.. they have this glimmering and stunning skins. hmm. ohh.. last night I went to Intan Spa somewhere near Micronet. The place is awesome.. feels like Bali environment. The masseuse is I can say knowledgeable in massage and she gave few other tips. eheh. and Eyan commented on the guy masseur.. he's pretty good compared to the guy he always visit at Serusop. So kamu2 laki2.. try him. eheh. 

QUICK UPDATES

I couldn't sleep tonight. damn.. its 2.15 already and im still wide awake. not even close to sleepy. sigh.  I have this problem for 1/2 days already.. I think I caught up with the urinary tract infection. not that aku minta2.. but it seems like im going to the toilet often. TOO OFTEN. and I feel like I wanna pee every second. damn it. kusut ku seriously. and now im taking in antibiotics. ergh. I have to.. 

Updates. Updates. Updates. I ordered cupcakes from unamariposa. erm.. chocolate cupcakes with caramel frosting and ermm.. red velvet cupcakes for my flight to KL this coming 19th. eheh. I'm going with both RPS owners and the beau to attend Skate Competition there. 

What else? I have a facebook sudahhhh. It feels like a reunion. nyohhh. I bumped into few primary school friends and secondary too. never been happier. hehe. It was ok lahhhh.

ANDDDDD.. today is MY 31st ANNIVERSARY. He was being sweet before falling asleep. He showed me his post. Thank you Baby. and thank you for being open. will try to trust you more. I don't know what pictures should I post here but frankly, there's only 7gb left of the memory on my mac (shows that I have alottttttt of pictures) yet I dunno which one should I upload. Currently is trying to upload the pictures from the iphone to the mac but its friggin slow that I kept on unplugging the cable. ergh. 

Picture is by Adada.

p/s I love it when people took a picture of me/us. 'cause most of the time.. we don't have ours. plus we're not vain. lol. Thanks Adada. and I loike this pic. hehe. Sadly, aku nampak lampuh. HAHAHAHAH. oh well.. 

US moments

Its been so hectic for the past few weeks. I gave myself sometimes to refresh back to the past 2 years. It's undeniable that there are so many changes in me as well as the beau. We were an outgoing person at the early stage. and now, we don't even know where to go, what to do bla bla bla. The belated celebration has been ignored and forgotten. Other things come 1st then followed by US. I just realised that I too, failed to lay hold of my relationship. I'm sorry. I love you. 

|Trip| Singapore 19/8/07 to 25/8/07 part 4

At Royal Plaza hotel:

Zaty's first edits for us

This is the first picture my gf edited for me. I really love it babe! Thanks:) Now go do some more for me! ahhahaha