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Few things happen for a reason. I quoted Nurul's words.. "if ko sudah kana bagi cemani, ani amanah Allah arah mu". I guess I believe that. 

I was scrolling through this one lady's pictures.. not gonna mention here. She looks glowy and I have to say "clean".. something just shows the pureness from her face. I guess a person is letting her go does have an effect on her.. I pray for your wellness from head to toe. Amin. I saw her at the mall last time but it feels weird to approach her.. even to smile at her. Lets just put it that way.. I'm not hating you.. its just.. I don't feel good to be put the blame on me when my intention is good for this two people eventhough its not working very well in the end. Somehow it did before the ends really totally over. hmm. what i'm saying here is.. amanah nya might be arah someone else.. not this one person anymore. maybe there is need to change this new person? or.. idk. 

Anyway, I attended Khursus Nikah for 3times already.. next week will be my final khursus. Having a lecturer in front of us and me listening very carefully.. here's one thing. As you people know.. "kata2 itu satu doa". Kata2 actually involves everything.. our mindset, what the heart is saying and all. As hard as I don't want to believe that.. actually it is true. what's in your thought but was not said aloud.. it is a doa. I came across few events in my life that I imagined dulu came true. scary huh? That is why you are not allowed to be a pessimistic. 

p/s O_O its 2 weeks. the wedding is in 2 weeks. and damn.. my room is not fully furnished yet. lol. and the parents kept on calling me every single day asking me this and that.. how can I relax my mind? ergh. 

Anywhoo, Happy Belated 3rd year Anniversary Shopian. It was more than 3 years from the day we met actually.. hahaha. 

BEAUTY FREAK

Wuuhuu.. finally I got my eyelash extension. lol. sekadar ah? I couldn't wear my spectacles properly and comfortably. HEE. and I showed them to my mom today.. and she laughed. and commented I looked like Minnie Mouse :D that badd huh.. 

oh so I was cursed.. I know. my badd for telling those conversation but then.. you think you are perfect and you sure you are telling the truth. I haven't bitch about YOU for so longgg like after the quarrel and YETTTTT.. you are messing around with your bloody tongue and other people's feelings. HAHAHA. lady lady.. the day you talk about your love life is the day that I know everything. how caring was I to hear your rungutan? anddd guess what.. that was the best feelings I had when I played around with yours too. 

fyi, I don't mind losing a friend like YOU.. cause u never get tired playing with fire. damn you. lol. I learned from my mistakes but DID YOU? There are always reasons for whatever you get nowadays A.K.A karma. and you wished something bad for me? as long as I act better than you.. insyaAllah.. I will have the life I want. 

p/s May the best comes to you. 

L.O.V.E.

Wonderment: What makes guys different from girls? (Ok.. don't tell me the obvious one yea) but honestly, i wonder why is it ok for the guys to haf another woman while they haf a gf? why the guys always say that that's their nature.. to flirt? and for them a msn convo of their's is just a y'know chatting saja. ok.. maybe those fantasy lady out there turn them on.. but why do u guys haf to meet the girls when it is only your fantasy?? why do you need a number anyway?? why do you need to hear her voice?? i know for sure that few love the gf even though they engaged in infidelity but aren't you guys afraid of falling in love with the lady you going out with?? but then you keep on saying i still love you and beg for one last chance. crap. anyone want to comment on that?? 

then, do u know how it feels when your gf/lover/wife do the same thing to you? Is it ok for you guys out there? what if we girls hang out with another guy.. a fling? I must agree that everyone is not perfect.. sometimes people will make the same mistake over and over again but until when? Now i may conclude that all guys are sweet-talker! I made a mistake once in a relationship and i regret that. The start of my relationship is not that pure either. heh. I always hear people say that.. "she's mine.. I'm not willing to share her with anyone else" .. but why not apply that truly? Serious mannn.. 

People.. I'm thankful for everyone out there who hold on their relationship eventho the ups and downs is unbearably unaccepted. I'm happy for you all out there who haf an honest boyfriend/husband/lover.. be thankful and stick to him and care for him until the end. Make a wise decision on every aspects. Think for the consequences before you do something. Don't take the risk.. you never know how many people you will hurt with your action. I know many urg tua2 yg aged 40+ and 50+ have nephews and all.. ada wife.. ada all.. but still trying to find yg belasan tahun and 20+ .. trust me. I know few "orang tua inda sedar diri". I don't know what is going on with the world.