Pregnancy Talk

So.. i'm 37 weeks pregnant. Few days to 38 weeks. and my 40th week should be on the 23rd October 2009. But entah.. i don't think i'll be delivering on the 40th week. eheh.

guess what.. here's the funny story. I was standing in front of Eyan and couldn't stop talking and blabbing and Eyan was just looking continuously at my feet. and he said something like.. is it me yg salah liat or ur kaki mcm bangkak? and I was like looking down tarus and shocked to see my feet mcm kana sangat ahhhhhhhhhh. OMG. bangkakkkkkk.. tinggi usul kakiku ah.

and HOW THE HELL AKU BULIH NDA SADAR KAKIKU BANGKAK DARI PAGI TO PTG AH? cubatahhh. no wonder kasutku mcm fit semua. haha. oh well..

Anyway.. was google-ing about it. its called oedema due to water-retention within tissues whatever or it may cause by something blood circulation. I don't know which one relates to me. I'm thankful its not hurting me though gatal rasanya.

My 2009 Raya

It was different and sad. I mean.. there's always my parents every morning and I usually woke up at 7 or 8 to get ready for the first day Aidilfitri. and this year Raya.. I was at my husband's place.. and he usually woke up late and ignoring things i guess. I couldn't go back to sleep fyi I woke up at 6.. I can't help to wake my husband early as well like.. 7ish. Told him to go to Masjid for Sembahyang Raya.. not a bachelor anymore. He should know his responsibility as a Muslim.

Hearing Takbir Raya early morning did make me cry though my husband didn't notice it. heh. Somehow its touching for this year. hmm. and what's funny.. i listened to khutbah raya from the beginning til the end. I spent my first day Raya in KB and came down to my place at night.. yeehee.. got to taste my mother's ketupat and serunding. She did made an unappreciated (as for my father) effort to cook that for us.

and what I love the most for "our" Raya since three years ago.. we always take pictures together. I don't need to go to photo studio.. because i think our pictures looked best. hehe. I have alot but these are the only pictures that I loved seeing everytime.. :)



Early setup before the final pictures to be taken. hehe. see my cute bumpy tummy. My mom was pretty fussy with my Baju "sudah ku bagitau jgntah baju sampit2" hahahaha.





I love my makeup.. and i wore fake eyelashes.. rasakan mau eyelash panjang atu ahhh. I wanted to do the extension but I don't want to be disappointed and will keep on pulling them at the end of the day. lol. I'm loving my longer hair.. though I feel like cutting them. hmm. I don't think my husband will allow me.. he doesn't trust me to go to the salon by myself.

oh well.. that's all for my raya. I didn't go raya-ing much this year since my days are near.. my back is not coping very well with my heavy weight too. hmm. I haven't meet all the cousins jua.. be it my mother's side or my father's. I miss my place.. Penanjong to be exact.

and ohh.. regarding the flyers below.. Do any of you ever thought how the hell I climbed up that curb whatever u call it? I have to say shit! hahahaha. and I'M PREGNANTTTTTT. hahahahaha. its pretty funny.. we should have recorded that moment.

Salam Aidilfitri

Things change for some reasons or not..

I used to wear mini skirts in public.. but now.. nope.. I only wear those at home. hehe.
I used to be thin.. like.. I may say Emma Watson.. but now.. i'm bulging even more each day (give exception to my atm pregnancy)
My rooms used to be messy before i'm married.. its better now. lol.
I always plucked my eyebrows but I stopped when i'm with Eyan (except for during my wedding day).
I never bake cakes without my mom when i'm younger.. but now that I lived separately from my mom.. I managed to bake few.
I'm worst at cooking.. but i'm ok now.. I can cook what my in-law likes *not to brag*
I'm not bothered if my panty/G's ever flashes between my skirts or my cleavage is obvious from distance.

What i'm trying to say is.. we will be a different person depending on time, who we are with, yada yada yada.
I did change when I'm with Eyan.. idk him. but me.. yes definitely. I was an asshole back then (HAHA).. and still an asshole partly. But then.. i feel that what's important is to know my responsibility as a wife although I may not remember everything to serve my husband. I may not be perfect.. but i depend on the words of my husband. If there's a need to change.. then change for good.

Overtime, your mindset tends to change as well.. you'll be more thinking actively and rasionally i guess. also critically. As hard as you don't wanna burden yourself by thinking that way, you will still be in those category. More, if you are in working environment where there are so many ageing population. hehe. not to leave behind their experience etc.

idk what's my point on posting this but.. I just want people to know.. when someone is willing to change for you.. why not change yourself? I'm not targeting specific person here but I want people to get the idea of that. I'm always trying to change myself step by step whether its physically, duniawi or amal ibadah wise. hmm. I wanna show/prove the best for my kids, my generation. i've set my mission and vision to educate them insyaAllah.

I think i'm gonna post pictures for my next post. kesian ah boring.

Ramadhan

Yeehee.. its Ramadhan. Welcome Ramadhan. Unfortunately i did not fast today because many people said i'm not recommended but menyasal rasakuuuu.. i'll catch with puasa tomorrow. ehehehe. Hopefully it'll be fine. Amin Amin Amin. I'm looking forward if I can manage to khatam Quran by the end of Ramadhan.. the earlier the better.

My first sahur was at my in law.. first sungkai also. I'll hop to my family's tomorrow *grin* macam si banar aku atu ikut sahur.. puasa nada. hahaha. I just want to accompany the husband though there were other family members. Herewith, I would like to greet SELAMAT BERPUASA friends, cousins and relatives and anonymous. I just knew that Kaka Lina linked me.. hehe. Thanks. I'll link all you people next time.. i'm lazy too put in and put out names and updates. ehehe.



and ohh.. guess what were we doing yesterday? My husband and I and his cousin and also a friend went to Pantai Muara for Raya Photoshoot. and of course it'll be posted during the first day of Raya insyaAllah. It was fun with the baju kurung and me wearing heels with my bulging tummy. hahahahaha. I miss my heels. kan melawankan.. "nda jua sakit bah pakai heels" tunggu batah memakai karang nda tejalan. hahahaha.

Attachment? ergh.. I became the Manager of Sales and Business Development for two weeks.. not formally. this is just according to me. Why do I say me the Manager? because i'm the one who attends Manager's meeting. and employees from other departments actually asked me few questions as in "in my opinion" (nda jua patut tu) and i'm doing the CAPEX (capital expenditure) of the proposed project. Even my husband who has a degree and has been working for 3 years never do the CAPEX. amazing right?

Thank god my boss will be here by this Monday. I hate meetings.. unfortunately i will not be in the office in the morning to update him on what I've been doing. I'm sure he's lost as well.

what's next?

I see life is.. idk. i've had a hard time adjusting with.. hmm. I just wish few people could understand what's "married life" actually.. I mean I want to have all the freedom. idk why is it that hard to get what I want. heh. I just wish the way i think is the same with others.. on the side of my pemikiran I mean. eh banar tahhhh.. furious ku bahhh.

This will be my 1st announcement in the blog.. i'm pregnant. I'm happy and tired at the same time.. its heavy and husband is so cute holding my tummy :) People have been wondering I guess.. so what. I kept on saying this.. don't judge me! Its unexpected but then.. I've been looking forward for this cause I seriously thought that I'm not able to carry one. for your information.. it was proposed since last year that my marriage will be this June 2009.. this is the real truth.. i'm not making up stories!

Guess what.. i've no problem with craving. I'm not fussy. I was being frigging sensitive in my early pregnancy. hahaha. that's not enjoyable at all.

Boring Updates

hahahahahaha. sorry for the lack of updates. I'm expecting cobwebs if this blog is physical. lol. I know I know.. I haven't post my wedding pictures.. I think its too late for me to post that.

Life as of now? I'm bulging from today to tomorrow. you get what I mean. Husband is gaining more weight than I do.. lol. and I need to mention it here.. I gain 3.1kg in a month. 0_0 and addition to this topic.. eyan gained 4. hahahaha.
My attachment? I'm starting to feel that I'm doing most of the job in my department since there is only me and my Boss in the department. Imagine that? and I hate stairs.. f*** stairs.. rumah tangga.. kraja tangga. cramp kakiku.

As of today.. 3/8/09.. I went home from work at 10pm.. I hate it. not what I expect.. especially me in my heavy situation and me as an attachment student. damn. eheh. Its all because of a visit by this one particular organisation that'' be tomorrow.. everything is last minute. ergh. I told you.. i'm like know most of my department's stuff. eheh.

I think my husband is doing his office work now as well. I guess he has alot to catch up with since he was on leave for two days last week.

H1N1 news is scaring me..

As for now.. there are 93 cases is it? 20+ was released from the Hospital but then adding up is more than released. and one was defeated to h1n1.. its a 12 year old girl. kesian eh. sigh.

With my current condition.. seriously i'm scared to go out. idk if I have a low immune system whatsoever but better save then sorry. Is it possible that the virus is transferred through air? in that case.. people shouldn't be ignorant about this anymore. take an action please. What annoys me very badly.. MOH kept on saying not to panic. i mean.. that will give the assurance to the public that "IT IS OK TO GO OUT" wth. come on lahh.. think about it will ya?

Our housing environment is no longer save to me.. cause wanna know why? RBA workers like stewardess and pilot are staying here.. you never know~~ i'm not blaming them. but just being anxious. so yea.

Attachment.. its getting fun and fun eventhough.. stairs is fucking burdening.. and I know.. I should consider that as exercise. lol. I had my first staff meeting today and I was told to introduce myself by the General Manager.. i'm all clueless. He wants me to describe/explain myself.. and I only manage to tell my name and nickname and what I want to gain for this next 6 months. so yea.

Husband.. I love you. xOXo (hug. Big kiss. Big Hugg. kiss) hahahahaha. that Nacho Libre is stupid.